The Awry Ascent

by Hungry Lights

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"The Awry Ascent" is a concept album about a man who loses himself to his desires. This album is part one of a five part series called, "From Windfall To Hell," which is the tragic tale of a man's delusional descent into madness.

If you click on the individual tracks here, you will be greeted with a small chapter summary of each song—describing what is literally going on within the lyrics.
For a more detailed summary, you can visit the Hungry Lights Wiki:
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released October 11, 2015

All songs composed, written, recorded, mixed, and mastered by Justin Bonitz. Album art by Justin Bonitz.

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Hungry Lights is my solo music project. The plan is to release five concept albums all surrounding a character named, "Prill," who is a plesiosaur hunter on a quest to better his life, but everything he does just adds to his own delusion and lack of self-worth. The music is the musical interpretation of a book series I have been writing called, "From Windfall To Hell." ... more

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Track Name: Aphotic Currents 1
Instrumental.
Track Name: An Outset In The Sea
Fate began to pull at the bow of my hollow existence
So I prayed

No vessel, drifting in the ocean
Your hushing waves knew me
And of the dust that sat beneath my feet?
The Sandman must have shaky hands

You hailed me back!
My beloved waits at the wall beyond the sea
Please don't forget me
Or the man that I had truly meant to be
And above my head, an albatross with wings of iron
We're all that's left
My spirit woven thin
I should have drowned...

Jubilee and hilarity
-What life would be if you and I had exchanged our arms
I am promised to a century of torment and scorn
And every day, I wake up someone new—reborn
True suffering—the cottage of the world

I could catch a thousand sheepshead
I could bask in the glory of the spoil
But what it meant to me could never satisfy the taste for more
O' what catastrophe!
I'd mastered all my craft, but not reward
So soon, my ardent day would cast a spiraled shell—my fated lure

Jubilee and hilarity
-What life would be if you and I had exchanged our arms
I am promised to a century of torment and scorn
And every day, I wake up someone new—reborn
True suffering—the cottage of the world

O' how I longed to walk your shore!
To bathe in your affection forever
This tattered, twisted, broken mast would sail no more
But we sail endless...
Thus upon my brow, an omen
The heavy, secret eye evolves
Two iron wings take flight,
But to never stray my side
I could never be the same

I could spot it!
Your shoreline, just on horizon's beak
Vehemence, and I was kicking
But my fleeting strength was low
I reached out and clawed the swell back
Drenched and wide-eyed, I propelled forward
Forward I'd go!
The sea would not defeat me!
Track Name: Prite & Promise
I had taken long to your shore
From within the febrile sea, I'd finally emerged
On the surface, I kept aspire to never stop
My muscles ached and I was torn

I deny that I am exhausted
-Soon to end
My paramour stood open-armed
On the sand where first took our glance
I'd keep the promise that I made along that bank

All my life, you're all I need
-The one to draw prosperity
Erasing you would be my fault, and I'd not cry

Stroke by stroke, my arms felt like concrete
I kept my head above surface,
But I choked the brackish water
O' I seethed!
It pushed waves of death deep inside my head
-Vibrations of psalm
Amidst the swell, I heard you!

All my life, you're all I need
-The one to draw prosperity
Erasing you would be my fault, and I'd not cry

But as I inched the forward, how kelp bristled my feet!
Entangled in those fingers
And I'd no strength for a counter
It wrenched and pulled me under
I kept my hands aloft
I would not break my promise
Not here, so close to you!

O' I grabbed the strings, and I dug into that knot!
Pushed to your shore, I stumbled out

All my life, I tried to be the one to draw prosperity
I'm wishing everything I drew was gone, and I'd not cry
Track Name: The Fence
From the heart, again I felt beat
And the dawn—your smile
O' I concede!

My revered standing in the expanse
To my surprise, a cantered stride
Is the proposal that you'd yearned for my embrace
And as we lock
And as we cite
You ached to tell me something

Such words merely bounced off
My naked ears did not understand
My chaos—controlled,
But contorted by hearsay
O' I'm divided!

We might have made a treasure weaved in cloth
Of the kind that can't be forgotten
Like a fire spreading far beyond the shore,
Such a fierceness was our love

You told me all about your passions and your funny dreams
-A portrait that was painted in the dark
For I was lying on a bed of whispers in my sleep
And nothing that you said would stay affix

Many hours and days and weeks went by
I saw that I could not provide
Shall I stay by your side?
And as the moonlight shined into the sea,
The reflection lied...
The reflection lies!

How I could not spend my whole life like that!
How I would despair!
I tasted a sip of ambrosia
-Waking into divine

We might have made a treasure weaved in cloth
Of the kind that can't be forgotten
Like a fire spreading far beyond the shore,
Such a fierceness was our love

I would not believe such an absurd inception
Could test my honor and provoke my pride
And just when I'd fenced in my garden,
The wild grew rampant for me
When through black, a fruit I was shown
-The seed for my incessant soil
O' I had to affirm!
I'd sail out before the high tide
I need to be the best again!

In inquisition for a betterment,
I wound a rope that slowly thread my way down
I was a stitch away from lunacy
Splendidly bursting through the shell

If I had a choice, I'd surely stay
But like a curtain closing on the stage,
Where else to go but back with the director?
Into the blue—into the sea,
Into a frightened ocean!
I would find what would get us by
Ride the wings of desire through the fence!
Track Name: A Drunken Stalemate
As I sat alone,
My low, rose eyes scoured the tavern
In that mass of riffraff,
Maybe I'd find an outcast that had whipped the chance I pined

A darkness flowed beside me
It smelled of rain and low tide
Curious, I queried for a dance
Them' types of mirrors?
They show things they don't mean to

How she would cough the cue
The music blared
We swirled and dipped
I draped a mask and swaggered like I'd been a mess
My breath was foul with ale and smoke and fumes
This drunken stalemate had locked me where I stood

And as she blathered horns of nonsense,
Not soon enough, she burnished my covet prize
And like a fool, I set out into the storm
And like a fool, pursued
Track Name: Umber Tower
An umber tower is quiet and looming before me
And I once used nothingness to fill that void
Then the sky must thrown a gauntlet
To detour me from the center I knew
-And I've never been wrong

The winds had changed beyond your shore
Now a mattered mane that muffles the lion's roar

Such a place would leave a sour, familiar taste upon my tongue
How I trembled at the knees!

Underneath a mask, in the gully I hie
And I sank much deeper than I had prepared for
Tailing shades coalesced and converged on the walls
When I turned, they were nothing!
No, nothing at all!

O' such beguiling was their boisterous game!
My own shadow... now a faceless no one

Such a place would leave a sour, familiar taste upon my tongue
How I trembled at the knees!

At sudden, from inside me
I felt a rapid disassemble
And all around had turned to gloom
Still, all around was calm
And I raised my fist!
But there was no confrontation
Just a question had they asked
And with the comfort, I gave in

An umber tower was quiet and looming before me
So I used its gallantry to fill that void
Truly, I had embraced that delusion and glory
So I guess I don't know what I knew after all

Such a place would leave a sour, familiar taste upon my tongue
How I trembled at the knees!
Track Name: The Nimloks
Inside of that hive, the air was stale
All I saw?
A fog that'd go for miles
A buzzing drone would heighten all my senses
To a tune of rusty, lichen hopes

Behind a mask is where I stole
And I waited in the dirt for my ascension
To my surprise, I saw them—hungry and down below
But I felt serene for a mortal man
They were demons that made to follow me,
And they crabbed their way on through
And they tore my heart and drank my fountain dry!

I'd remain with half a head on my shoulders
And my path lead to a mountain of shame and gold

Well, I bore a hole of new frustration
For the river I could never cross
In every fiber, I could feel all wicked eyes
They aimed for me, and I was lost

O' I knew they was' watching me!
And they couldn't stop this madman

I'd remain with half a head on my shoulders
And my path lead to a mountain of shame and gold
If I stay too long, that darkness will turn my soul black
But all the same... at least I'd have my gold

O' I knew they was' watching me!
And they'd never stop this madman's drum!

Can I cross a river made of anguish?
When from the murk, they'll strike their pose into my faith
O' how they'll sink and force their teeth into my soul!
I closed my eyes and let go

No envy to drown my voice
-The cold mud of freedom's grandeur
Judgement's been denied
For I stand on the other side
O' I feel it calling home!
O' I hear it sound its horn!
O' I feel it!

I'd remain with half a head on my shoulders
Track Name: The Awry Ascent
Every step shall resonate as the culling of privation
And in the echo of my forward betterment,
I'd blaze a path for more to draggle

Burned by the false wonder
Yet still I felt content
Afraid of the sound of the chimes
In their very nature was how I made my choice
For the awry ascent

O' how I roared for a cease!
A staircase not of sense, but made of dreams that evade
And grow until the ivy sprouts into the sky
And shadows true existence
-A false mirage
What a foul immersion!

Burned by the false wonder
Yet still I felt content
Afraid of the sound of the chimes
In their very nature was how I made my choice
For the awry ascent

No seer would tell me of my discarded faith
I dismissed such heed
I was embodied with pride—o' ego!
-The worst of evils

Burned by the false wonder
Yet still I felt content
Afraid of the sound of the chimes
In their very nature was how I made my choice
For the awry ascent

How the albatross can soar with those heavy, iron wings
They would weigh me like a stone with a chiseled, cosmic story
I admired such vim
I admired such courage
For it showed me I could fly
If I only would endure
Track Name: In The Eyes Of A Sword
My fantasy was soon to uncurl
The fern I plucked had drank the nectar
From the pernicious soil
All trepidation had been contained
And if the wind would catch in my sail,
I'd find the beast that fouled up the water
Impel the lure that would change the course of fate!

With no wind in the doldrums,
You had pigeonholed my dream
And pressing quandaries on the layline
Kept me anchored in that spot

Was this an omen or fluke?
I should have thought things through
There'd be no misconceptions to step on my shoes

Again I'm pulled in the wrong direction
-Burdened by the knowledge in my crown
And in the standstill, I felt my mane grow
I was a lion in the swell!
And at that moment of true allegiance,
At sudden, a squall had bit my tail
That precious virtue had been forgotten
No lies would sit upon my throne

There was a fire in my eyes!
And I soon made my way to luff
Would I feel guilty for doubting the ways of your will?

Have no pride in the ocean
The waves of constancy hiding my unkempt tears
Where the life of a no one—the same as a nobleman
Heroes and scoundrels alike in the eyes of a sword

I need no compass!
For a tiger's eye spearheads my journey
Through the open water's maw
Into the mistral of a wrathful, nettled god
No ship would sail here,
For the whirl had etched a drowning

And the rain pouring down made it difficult to see
I was carrying on my back, all the weight of the world
How I suffered in the maze of the giants
O' the mess!
I had created such impressive walls
And in my mind,
No, I could never ever fault!

I dreamed!
I visioned that I caught a treasure with my spiral
And sheer ferocity had pulled its carcass to my palm
And in such moment, I would make that wish a solid maxim!
O' I'd accomplish such a feat that no one ever had!

Still, there is fear in my eyes...
I never think things through
And on this voyage of arrogance,
I had forgotten just who I am

Have no pride in the ocean
The waves of constancy hiding my unkempt tears
Where the life of a no one—the same as a nobleman
Heroes and scoundrels alike in the eyes of a sword
Track Name: Wither
Imagination was crawling across the water
Across my head-cove
Afraid of what sight!
It mitigated valor, removed all courage,
Canceled my progress, and left me abashed
My walls were rising, and I'd not see them
Until my shadow was three times my size

O' how would I get back unscathed and unbroken?
-Unsure
And now, in this moment of paralled focus,
We'd hold this trade
Deep in the crux of the ocean, she had awoken
Behold all her wonder!
I cast—did my lie

O' would she ever bite to taste the lure?
A shaky hand in place for the reel and turn

What my reflection turned into denies all of truth and burns
My soul trapped by mirrors of fire!
The flames emanate the lie,
And the way was shut

O' I am festering in misery!
Inner-strength's begun to wither
The path I walk's been overgrown with vines and thorns
-Crushing all that grew,
And strangling my truth til' I am barely breathing
I've been doomed!
Then lightning struck my brow
Raining daggers cut me down
But I did not let go...
I never would let go!

It cracked the sky
I could not—would not—should not be a hero
At sudden, breaching from the clouds,
Another burst of brilliance!
And in the crashing down,
It split my vessel—overturned
And holding onto what was left had kept my faith secured
My god had shown his hand!

And the knives of rain came down!
And the waves would lurch and swell!
And any who crossed my way would think me all but sane

I cast again and watched it glissade through my fingers,
Like caterpillars
Tremoring outside the comfort of their chrysalis
Such metamorphosis took place here tonight
Track Name: Fothcrah
No warning, my sea had gone quiet
I was there...
But not prepared to brush with the terrible creature I had found
She invoked my fear!

Now caught in the height of my voyage,
I looked into the sea and focused
In my own reflection—what I saw!
How I felt betrayed!

In the gloom, ruby eyes watched me from behind a mask
With a face just like mine—waiting for my consent

Such a culling could mean my end
Trust and certainty—both guiding into the grave
-A foolish inquiry

I tested the weight of my anchors
I'd survive...
So down I climbed
What wonder could hide in that spiral!
Should I fail, it would mean more shame

Was it pride?
Was it greed that lead me to such poor accord?
In the jaws of the beast, would I still feel the same?
All my life, I'd been robbed of all my dignity
But now I was the rogue who would return it back

Such a culling could mean my end
Trust and certainty—both guiding into the grave
-A foolish inquiry
She hanged—she lingered until I dropped my gaze
Her roar—what thunder to haunt my every dream!

Such corruption leaked into my sea!
In my confusion, she broke through the fence
O' she was patient and sat on my line!
A turning of tide...
Was she the prey or the hunter?

O' I had believed me the hand of a god!
How I must be insane!
But the best of us are...
This madman is bringing home glory and prestige!
Behind the complex is a man with the soul of a king
Or a meal for the beast...